Thursday, October 8, 2009

Killing boredom!

I just realized I've been on hiatus for 1.5 years. Guess I'm better at coping up with life without having to rant on blog.

I'm attending a training session at Damansara Intan. I admit that I can pay undivided attention to the speaker. Never. What a wonder I could ace my degree by sitting in the class daydreaming for 4 years. I attribute this to a non-audio person me. Some friends I know can repeat the exact same words they just heard. Me? Never. I could only understand & summarize them in my own words, hoping without distorting its meaning hehe

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

What do you want me to do?

3 years ago, my blog entries were mainly revolved around "a person". 3 years later, I met this person again by fate and he's giving me endless emotional torture. Maybe I have truly grown up, I've learnt to control my emotions and to cope up with the heartache. I have to be more resilient, able to bounce back although being knocked down.

Are patience and persistency per se the key to get the relationship started? I'm just tired of waiting around. Yes I'm just simply impatient. "Like to progress slowly and quietly"? I was like "what the heck!"

I know what I want. But I don't know what do you want. Therefore, I'm pointless what to do with you anymore. I just need busy schedule to keep my mind occupied. At least for the time being.

Grrrrghhh...I'm so frustrated..

Saturday, November 24, 2007


While I was driving back from sending Claudia home, I felt a sudden surge of "dejavu" heartache, which I have not been experienced for a long time. Today I missed college life very much. There are so many things reminiscent me of the good o' days. The feeling was so intense that I was willing to give up my current "luxuries" to go back then.

I always feel reluctant to clean up room. Whenever I see "something" that would flood back all those memories, I get emotional again. The cleaning tasks would just stalled there. Ouch*

Is it because the current life pace is too normal and there's nothing to be excited about? Therefore there's nothing special to distract me from reminiscent of the past.

Friday, June 15, 2007

I am fine, really...

I thought it was reasonable to be frustrated, upset and disappointed, when my unforgiveable enemy and I have to share the same glory, obtaining a first class honour degree. Yesterday, I received an SMS from a best friend known in college. Well...she got second lower class, I feel deeply sorry and concerned for her. Swear the lousy system introduced by the British Degree Programme. No matter how well we performed in year 1 and year 2, it's futile (excluding personal development). Only year 3 results are taken into consideration. can flunk papers as much as you want in year 1 & 2, if you make sure you hit the bulleyes in year 3, voila! First class honour degree is yours.

I still feel sorry for her. This time I am really speechless that I can't find any proper comforting words to soothe her. frustration seems petty as compared to hers. I should count my blessing, at least I got good results in the end, right?

God bless her, hope she can land herself a decent job.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

My Valedictorian Speech

Good morning and thank you to family, friends, faculty and colleagues for joining us in our grad celebrations today.

I feel deeply honoured to be chosen as valedictorian by INTI. Never in my wildest dream did I ever imagine that I would be standing before all of you delivering my speech today. Six years ago, I was far from being where I am today. I was a below average IT student in a well-known college. How much below average, you ask? Well I failed paper 23 times in 2 years. It took me 6 resit attempts just to pass a Physics paper. At that time, I thought I had gained nothing from these miserable 2 years. During the last semester, we were offered an elective subject “Business Organization and Management”. I instantly fell deeply in love with a subject for the first time in my entire life. From then onwards, I was more than determined to obtain a Bachelor’s Degree in Business. My father was struggling to make end meets. I had no choice but to work for 2 years. But at the same time I still hung on to my dream of obtaining a Bachelor’s Degree in Business. Luckily, my family’s financial dilemma improved. I finally managed to convince my father to send me back to college. At first, he was very skeptical and I remember someone telling him that he should not waste anymore money on his daughter. This “someone” felt that I was not worthy of an education, that I should be forced out of college should I ever fail again. These painful and heart breaking words stayed fossilized in my mind. Surprisingly, those were the words that inspired me, motivated me to work harder and persevere through thick and thin over the last 3.5 years.

Dear fellow graduates, let’s take a lesson from this. Never let anyone hold back your dreams. Never give up on goals. I may have failed over and over in the past, but one thing I do know is that: I am not a failure. I know this because failure only helps jolt us forward to become better, stronger, smarter and mature.

During these 3.5 years, I believe that each of us have learnt numerous valuable lessons. As for me, I have made one important observation of life. When I first enrolled into University Foundation Programme in 2003, I had a strong belief that "As long as I worked hard and smart, I could be very successful and able to obtain excellent results"

Through trial and error, it turned out I was only partially right. For example, our Intelligence, Diligence and Determination are our own strengths. Opportunities, you have to be blessed to have them. Where opportunities are concerned, I have had more than my share of luck. In fact, all of us here today, we’re like “lucky” lot. We had a host of opportunities.

First, we are lucky because many of us have family support. My father is 63 and he is still toiling. Working under the scorching sun, day in and out at the construction site just to see me through college. I am certain all of us here, have a story to tell. But today, our families are here and they’re all come a long way to celebrate our success. I would like to thank them for their invaluable support, sacrifice and for believing in us. They deserve to be out on a pedestal.

Next, we are lucky that University of Hertfordshire has facilitated the affiliation, which has enabled all of us to obtain a highly recognized British Bachelor's Degree without having to leave Malaysia. We are lucky that INTI has provided ample facilities and a conducive environment for us students. The administration at the School of Business and Law are impressive. They have solved numerous of our problems even we felt there was no middle path. To them, our heartfelt thanks.

At this juncture, I would like to take this opportunity to thank our lecturers. Why? These were the lecturers who stuck out their necks out for us. Sometimes when we obtained assignment marks which were lower than expected, we would complain quietly about the lecturers for having such high standards. Or worse we would gossip about them behind their backs. Immature isn’t it? I am well-aware that I have driven them insane. I believe that I was one of the most difficult students they had ever met in their teaching career. But, I learnt that lecturers have their own dilemmas and difficulties too. Amidst their own problems, they have to tolerate students who can be difficult at times. Whenever we need help, without a doubt they would out to us. We are indeed lucky to have them. Our future success is stems from your hard work. We would not have done it without you. You have always been there to help us, to guide us, to inspire us. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

My fellow classmates, together we have gone through twists and turns, made leaps and bounds over the last 3.5 years. Thank you all for your support, for respecting who I am, for accepting my weaknesses and most importantly, for being my friend. I will always cherish the memories we shared together.

The years have flown too fast that we barely remember how we survived through tons of assignment and last minute cramming in of notes before the final exam. Dear graduates, if you don't remember how you did it, at least what you have gained. Appreciate this moment and give yourself a pat on the back for achieving so much.

This is the end of the journey that has enriched us all. Together we take path towards greater heights. As we go our separate ways, we each have different destinations. Nobody knows what the future holds, but it will be more than delightful to meet again. I would like to wish you all the best in your future undertakings. Whichever path you are taking, follow your dreams and do not give up. Stay true to yourself and count your blessings.

I leave you now with a quote from the late Thomas Edison “Many of life’s failure are those people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up”.

Thank you and congratulations!

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Currently unemployed

I miss college alot. Although I didn't mingle a lot with with college mates and getting good grades seemed was the only world to me, yes I miss college. Going to class gives me a sense of purpose. Thinking back, I had to summon a strong will to get out from bed to attend a morning class. Yet I know what purpose I had the next day I woke up. My juniors had already started new semesters earlier this week. I have the temptation to join their classes.

The other thing that I miss most is a friend whom I knew since I entered college. I know I'm going to miss our moment sitting at the chinese coffee shop for hours, spilling our guts about the bad day we're having, ordering & sharing our "cham-pink".

As two of my classmates agreed about themselves, that they felt "I do not belong here", I agreed with them. Who knows I miss college now?

I guess I need some time to move on in this transitional period.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Super Peak Season of a College Student

I finally submitted my dissertation (a.k.a. thesis) yesterday! *heaving a sigh of relief. I had been doing this dissertation since last year September. Oh my god, it's the most draggy assignment I've ever had. excitement is sooooo short-lived

Because tomorrow I need to submit a crisis management assignment plus a group presentation. I sort of having a crisis right now. I guess the progress is only 5% completed.

100% report writing is on ME
100% presentation slide is on ME
100% creating cue cards is on ME
33.3% presentation is on ME
AND 3 people share the SAME mark.

Why am i being so generous? Whew..That would be a looooooooong story. I have to say that my 2 free-rider group members actually saved me in some sort of way.

keke...Sure I will manage to pull it through. Whether I would be able to produce a good assignment on short notice, that's another story lah...